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I rolled up to the stop sign and heard what would change my life forever.
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I was on my way to see my….friend.
My friend I had a crush on.
The one that went out on one date with a month prior and wasn’t asked out again.
The one who CLEARLY wasn’t interested in me because, well, we went on one date and we had the best time.. then nothing?
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He never flirted, never said anything, never told me I was pretty. I figured my life story was too much. What I had told him about my past scared him away, I understood, I had been through so much.
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But I still saw a glow in his eyes.
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You know those moments when you are crushing hard and you hope your hands’ touch and he holds it for a moment? The ones where you play and tease hoping he’ll lean in a little closer and give you some sense of a sign he’s feeling you too?
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Yeah, those moments never happened. Not even once. Despite my strategic move of bringing his favorite candy to the movie we were at, and trying to keep it just out of reach so he’ll have to reach, he never did. No lingering, no touching, just sitting. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I’m a good flirter and literally, he does nothing.
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But on my way to that non-flirting movie time we sat at, I heard something. When I pulled up to the stop sign, and slowly rolled to a stop, God clearly said to me the words I needed. The ones He knew I would HAVE to hear. The ones that helped me get over my fear of being in a relationship again.
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“Whatever he asks you, say yes.”
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HUH? What? What in the world could he ask me? What could he possibly need to ask that I would need to say yes to? He doesn’t even like me.
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“I was wondering if you wanted to be in a relationship with me,” he said as I leaned back in the booth at dinner and my jaw hit the ground. “You are amazing, gorgeous and the most incredible mom. I’d like to get to know your heart more.”
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JAW. GROUND.
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WHAT? UM wait? Like you don’t even act interested AT ALL? Turned out, the month of silence was in prep for this moment. A crazy way to prep, don’t worry, he knows now…
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But I already knew my answer. I had it. God gave it to me. And in shock, I watched this and climb out of the friend zone and into the role of pursuer. And he hasn’t stopped yet. Not even once.
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I went from not knowing to girlfriend in a matter of hours. It was shocking because I had to get to know him in another way. BUT I already had my answer. YES.
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Happy 5 years babe. 5 years ago I said yes to you as a friend giving you permission to pursue my heart. It was the best choice I ever made.
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